Yesterday was a frustrating day. Trying to fix bikes with random tools and the strength of a weak women is clearly not an idea situation. I don't often give up on anything, but in the overwhelming mess of tools and children I quietly began to sob as I tried my best to put the bike back to the place where I had begun. As we started out on our new nightly route bike ride, I posted on facebook that I needed a guy and tools. My heart aches for a companion and helpmate. I long for someone to love, someone that wants and loves me back.
The Magic of this day is that one of my brothers who I rarely see stopped by to see if another bother was here. On his way in he noticed that my bikes brakes were too loose. I told him I didn't know how to fix it. He offered to do it for me. I told him about Nate's chain and how it kept falling off during our rides. My brother quickly fixed both bikes. As soon as he left I broke into a sobbing thankful mess. I want a husband, instead I got a brother. It was just a simple reminder that my Father in Heaven is mindful of my needs and is taking care of me.
Throughout my life God has not only given me the things I needed but also the things I waned. These wants were not always given in a form that I had expected but in the end they have always fit into my life better than I could have ever imagined. It is all about patients with the Lords timing, faith, and humility to except what the Lord is offering. I am so grateful for a Father in Heaven who knows me better than I know myself. I am so thankful for the everyday tender mercies He shows me. (facebook post from yesterday)
Sometimes it hard to see the Lords hand in our lives when he is not giving us the exact things we want. Today He gave me the thing I needed. I am humbled and grateful for His ever present hand in my life.
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